Written in winter to the spring in 2020 AD.
My beloved brothers and sisters; and we are brothers and sisters, we are a family; and what connects us, this is from heaven.
My name is Benjamin, and calls me by name.
Those who know me know I do not talk much; and it is not that I have nothing to say, but I keep silent; and my feelings, which I do not express. It is the Holy Ghost, who touches me and leads my silence to loosen and to write these words, so you know who I am; and my words are for all my brothers and sisters.
I have much testimony of the true church, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. In the year 2012 I had found the church, and the missionaries and missionaries had found me; and it was a mutual search and find. Today, seven and a half years have passed, and in this time I have experienced a lot of good and bad experiences.
I remember very well, one of my first experiences in church. A brother had given testimony, and he talked about his experiences and feelings, and he said, this is the Holy Ghost; I knew very well what he was talking about, because I had the same experiences and feelings in the same or another way; and I always knew, what I experience and feel, this is from God and it is true, but I could not call it by name; and I knew, I am alone and lost, and I was commanded to remain silent; and many and many years later, when I had found the true church, it was the first time in my life, that I heard from another human, that which is from God; and I learned it is the Holy Ghost.
I was already a member of the family, and the Holy Ghost was with me, before I had found the church; and there is a God, and God makes it possible; and I know I am the only one in these generations. I have found many answers and confirmations in this church, because this is the true church; yes, I have a lot of testimony, and there are many stories to reveal.
And I have had many bad experiences in this church, especially in the last weeks and months, and in the last two years. There is a song from the church, “I am Trying to Be like Jesus”. Jesus Christ had heard every human, and no human was rejected.
I have been very silence in my life; and I realized very early, the apostles are those, where I have to break my silence, and I said many years ago, and over and over again, I must speak with the apostles, but everyone is against it, and I have experienced only rejection and denial from you, my brothers and sisters. Many apostles have passed away in recent years, and all the apostles who were ordained before my time; and further, I will speak only to the apostles, or keep silent. A bishop can decide for his ward, but not for other wards on this earth; and my matter concerns the entire church, and only the apostles have the authority to make decisions. To deny me, this is not Christ, but Christ is with me; therefore, to deny me, this means to deny Jesus Christ as well.
To perish, this does not happen from one day to the next, but it is a slow fall. From the history of the Nephites, told briefly. A small sin was done, and it hurt at first; and more sins were done, until it no longer hurt. When it no longer hurt to sin, then other brothers and sisters followed; and the entire people were immersed in sin, because it did not hurt; and the once great fear of God became small, because it did not hurt. The whole story is in the Book of Mormon, about the fall of the Nephites, over many years, and in the end they had not seen God and his miracles, and Mormon preached to them in vain. And to deny me, you do not notice, it does not hurt, but it is sin; and you are on the way to perish, and you do not need to add anything else.
I know this is the true church of Jesus Christ, the only true church on earth; and how I know that, these are unrevealed stories, and it is more than just the confirmation by the Holy Ghost; and I have the knowledge of the eternal truth, and it isgood that I have this knowledge, so that I will be able to bear all the badness, and not turn my back on you and brand you a false church like hundreds of other churches, as Joseph Smith, Junior, had once done. This is the church of Jesus Christ, founded by Joseph Smith, Junior, by the authority of Jesus Christ.
It is my way to speak to the apostles; and those of you, when you will read this and hear about it for the first time, then that is right; and my words are for all my brothers and sisters, from the highest apostles, to the smallest, who is only present with a yes and amen. And if you follow a false prophet and he leads you down the wrong path, then you are on the wrong way and you will perish, even if you have good faith, but you deny the true prophet in your deeds. You have denied me, and the guilt is on you; and you have the joy, the possibility of reversing. It is your freedom of decision making.
I love my family; and you are my family, you are my beloved brothers and sisters, and I love you as my brothers and sisters. My love comes from the heart; and my source comes from the heart, from whom I give you these words in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.